
scents and smell

scents and smell are very important to my canine-ness for obvious reasons. I always have a candle or incense burning and as I embrace my creature-ism more, I sniff my loved ones and scent them. im not too sensitive to smells per se, I can handle alot, but I would say I've developed a complex sense of smell and especially as I get into perfume, I've gotten autistic abt specific scents and notes.
I have a preference for fresh spicy and woody scents, I dont like very warm scents as theyre overwhelming but fresh and cool scents make me feel refreshed and clean. (cleanliness is something to do with my autism and ocd and a tangent for another day). my favorite fragrances are runestone and wolf spirit by
solstice scents

death work and connections with death
death work and my fascination of death has been apart of my self forever. my fascination with dead animals as a child and then subsequently experience death of humans very intimately. something between my psychosis and autism made me very unresponsive to death in the traditional way, animals, especially roadkill, I feel nothing but fascination and reverence.
I feel that animals have a very different relationship to death than humans as humans built up societal taboos around it and not seeing it. animals accept when they die and mourn their dead without hesitation (not the right word but idk how to word they dont care the same way humans do)
ive yet to do any meaningful death work but I've done basic bone cleaning and I've got a cardinal and turtle i found on the road in my freezer. I collect bones, furs and tails of animals as well and I love sharing abt them. id love to work cleaning, or digging graves like my dad does, as much as I have issue with the current 6 foot concrete slab mortician culture we have (read more by Caitlin Doughty for more, shes inspired me alot)
death is as natural as birth and it feels subversive to say that in the current western society. alot of humans want to hide death and/or make it as palatable as possible and while death isnt always violent or sad, its part of the natural cycle, when I die, id like to be buried in a biodegradable wicker coffin somewhere deep in the woods. or have my body eaten by wolves but I worry abt my microplastics harming them.
having an understanding of my place in the wheel of life makes me feel more connected to an animal and while im not a scavenger myself, I like to think im something of an animal psychopomp by picking up and taking care of roadkill as another animal myself. taking care of their bodies and giving them their due reverence is important to me

the forest

and another obvious tenant is being outdoors in the woods. currently i live in the sticks and while it sucks for jobs, its something to keep me grounded by being able to see flora and fauna all of the time. I love hiking and exploring forests and camping and I've planning to go camping again soon. not much to say on this front, im a creature, I like trees and dirt